Just watching

This past week I got an invitation to an event the likes of which I have never seen.  I was invited to attend an all woman orgy - strictly as an observer.  Voyeurism was a deliberate part of the event, and I was informed that I could attend but would absolutely not be taking part.

This is my life now, I guess...?

I wasn't at all sure what I should do.  Much like my post about burlesque a couple weeks ago, I thought that watching a sexy show but not being able to participate wouldn't be much fun.  Lots of people really enjoy that sort of thing but so far in my life it really hasn't been my thing.  I don't ask people for strip teases because I don't want to be teased, I just want to touch and grab and GO.

I also had another far more mainstream event I could attend.  I could get a dance lesson and go dance with a bunch of people, some of whom I know.  That had some appeal too.

But if I went to the dance I knew how it will go.  I would dance, that will be fine, and I would always wonder what would have happened if I had chosen differently.  I am not likely to receive a great number of invites to orgies where I am expected to be a voyeur only and although I *thought* it won't do much for me I wasn't completely sure. 

You only learn new things about yourself if you push yourself to try new things, and there are some things I have done in recent years that I definitely never would have thought I would enjoy.

Plus I can always spend my time telling people about how I went to an orgy for science, and just saying that makes me smile.

I went to the orgy.

For science.

I liked the people I met there.  We had a bunch of stuff in common and I enjoyed their company.  On the other hand the orgy itself was ... meh.  Often boring, if I am being completely blunt.  I think the people involved had a good time and I am not knocking them at all.  The whole voyeur thing just didn't work for me.

At points I got introspective and thought how funny it was that there were two extremely attractive women 69ing each other not two meters away from me and I was staring off into space thinking about playing video games. 

Time is the key.  If someone said I could watch a all woman orgy for five minutes, jerk off and have an orgasm, and then get on with my day I would be perfectly happy about that.  It would be much like porn.

But if they ask me to watch said orgy for two hours then it would be quite boring for most of it, in the same way that I wouldn't watch porn for two hours. 

Maybe if it was a distraction off to the side it would work.  For example, if I was at a board game night and the orgy was happening on the other side of the room I could focus on my game and be entertained whenever the board wasn't grabbing my attention.

In any case now I know new things about myself.  Sex is the best, group sex is the best of the best, and watching other people do it while I just sit there is ... not the worst, really, but it ranks below sitting at home playing video games at the very least.

Science!